tyresias | Wonderland was phenomenal.

It helped me shake out of the ugly mindset I'd been in for the last 3 days. If I appeared anti-social lately, I apologize. Thankfully Zen, Rob and serene_dreams were patient with my grumpy-ass and I feel a lot better and generally back to my old self. I still need more sleep but one thing at a time, eh? The lyrics below come from one of the 6 songs on loop at Wonderland today. There was one song "jerk it out" by Caesar that bothered me but I won't go into it here.

I've spent so long firmly looking outside me
I've spent so much time living in survival mode

This won't work now the way it once did
Cuz I want to deside between survival and bliss
Now I know who I'm not I still don't know who I am
But I know I won't keep on playing the victim

These precious illusions in my head
Did not let me down when I was defenseless
And parting with them
Is like parting with invisible best friends
-Alanis "precious illusions"